out-of-place

i have been out-of-place for abt 2 weeks..

down with flu at first...doc dont give antibiotics..still not well...have to go again..doc finallie think is time to give antibiotics...i have to spend again..and the dumz medicine makes me drowsy..but the thing is i cant sleep! i can jus stare into blank space for hrs and count until the cows come home but I still cant get into sleep..is a shit feeling when yr eyes are so tired but yr mind is awake..i tried ways to relax...but to no avail...den i finish the medicine and i didnt get well totallie..and giving things up from the western treatment..i seek consultation from tcm...medicine with acupuncture and to know my body system is in a total imbalance from tcm view makes me kinda worried and sianz too..medicine making me cough cough..but at the end of 2wks hurdle..im jus getting slightly better..

i didnt fall ill in march..which i kinda surprised and worried..and finallie april i was down with all these..is jus a matter of tolerance in my body which I have hit the limits..spent my time resting during this weekend..no jap class..nothing..many things in mind which I hv to do...i avoid thinkin of them..as the things which im going to do have an unknown answer and Im not totally confident in doing them..expectations and confidence..im having an imbalance between these 2 items..

i need a break...