please...just let the 2 months pass quickly..

my schedule has nv been as hectic as now..everything all comes at a same time tat i feel im filled to the brim.

Last time pple used to tell me they think i have 48h a day.now..im already happy to have at least 8hr of sleep.

The main culprit lies in this idiot core curriculum im havin now.i feel is quite difficult n unbelievable to tell pple im havin exam every day n im having tons of stuff to read everyday.i feel like pon these lessons at times but the structure doesnt allow.tat aside,today i heard tat the coordinator feels we are nt pushed hard enuf..wth..im almost vomitting at this pace,burning my wkends at the expemse of rest,gatherings with frens, and "me-time"..n yes..two more months to go which i encourage myself everyday..that all these will end soon with a pass/fail grade..freak

2nd culprit..having to do 2 lab rotations in the midst of the above shit..is reallie hard to say what time u can leave..to think that u start lab at ard 2pm..and leave at an unknown time..im glad my current jap boss is very understanding enuf..but now due to some datelines, no choice, ive gotta rush and hope for the best in my results..wkends are possible to be burnt..no complains abt that..if only if something good comes out of the expt..i hope..

3rd culprit..Japanese...i guess i probably bring this to myself..to clear JLPT3 this Dec..which is like 2 weeks before my final exam in school..is reallie tough..every sat...i boarded on a "shinkansen" train, learning things at speed that no breaks are given, and given tons of jap hw to do...i do enjoy at the start..but now..due to time rush..i feel lethargic...i duno whether i should give it up after jlpt3..after studying for almost near to 3 years..giving up now will mean i may forget everything one day..having to continue will mean i need to work hard for 2 more years in addition to my phd...phew..what a choice...i guess i only settle on a decision after i know my jlpt results...

and so 3 culprits and me..with 24h/day..how to allocate my time...i now wish i having cloning capability..time to rest..time to lab..time to study...time to read jap...time to meet frens and do catchups bla bla bla...kinda apologetic to those who have asked me out and yet i cant respond immd with a reply..cuz most of the time i duno what my schedule is...as it's now influenced by my cells..as much as possible, i will give positive attendance..jus try my best..

16th Dec...that's all im hoping for..hopefully im still alive and healthy...and den 23rd Dec..i will really need my travel therapy..

till then...hope i can survive thru all these shit for the next 2 months..